"A sacrifice to be real must cost, must hurt, must empty ourselves. The fruit of silence is prayer, the fruit of prayer is faith, the fruit of faith is love, the fruit of love is service, the fruit of service is peace."
~Mother Teresa~
Its interesting for me, to come from a Bible College setting, where we are learning how to be missionaries, pastors, ministers of some kind or another, and spending hours and hours learning theory and techniques - and then to come here and see how it is actually lived out.
I've tried asking some of the pastors and missionaries here what they think of certain doctrinal disputes that are always debated back at college.
"Do you think this is more correct or that?"
The usual answer is,
"Vaii, you Americans have too much time to think! This high doctrine is not important. What is important is your relationship with Christ, and how you are living it out. Yes, doctrine helps. It is important to avoid heresy. But what truly matters, Rachel, is how are you living out what the Bible says? Are you spreading the Gospel? Are you loving God's people? What are you DOING with these disputes?"
Lots of different paradigms. Not only from a structured Bible College to front-line field work, but from America to Hungarian, Hungarian to Romanian, Romanian to Gypsy. And the thing is they are all different but all have their good points and all have their bad points. I learn a lot from each one, and pray that I can also be a Light for Christ in each one.

Talking with Silvana a lot about the different things one goes through as a missionary. I know of many missionaries who, when they go overseas, live more extravagently than when they live in the States because the dollar is worth more or whatever. I know of "Missionaries" who go with the mindset of changing the culture to fit theirs, to make 'their converts' to become cleaner, more educated, 'happier'. Then they go home and recieve recognition and praise for being on the field and 'sacrificing' so much.
However, what I see here is different. I see small changes in the Gypsies - one old woman started a Bible study and holds prayer for her friends and the Hagiu's. A few have started gardens or to raise chickens and care for their children better. One Gypsy lady even came over to the house when Silvana was gone to her home village to take care of some paperwork and bought groceries, cleaned the house and cooked for Nicu and the kids because she knew that they were too busy.
However, these changes are small and take a long time to sink in. And in the meanwhile, the family gets repeatedly sick from the Gypsies, who struggle with resperatory problems and other ailments due to lack of cleanliness, health education or diligence.
There is a peace and joy that comes from serving such people, but also it gets discouraging when they revert to old tribal predjudices or superstitions.
I have a few more years to make up my mind, but already the thought has been buzzing in my head; to go with a more formalized Mission Board and have the security, accountability, and care they offer - but also the regulations and restrictions. OR to step out in a more free yet 'risky' approach of missions. Not sure, still praying. Its not that one is more better than the other, because they both have huge benifits and huge drawbacks. They are just different approaches.
Anyway. I have been trying to study more diligently in the Romanian language book I bought in the States. I have officially decided that the American school system has GOT to drastically change their approach towards Grammar education!!!
Fortunately I studied some grammar, so it's not a HUUUUGE stretch for me to get the grammatical concepts the book gives, but still. VAAAAIII Capul meu!! (Oh my head!!)
I introduced Naomi to the German Futhark (old runes) and we found the Dwarfish and Elvish runes in their copy of Lord of the Rings, so while I study Romanian she studies LOTR alphabets, and she helps me with pronounciation and I help her figure out what exactly Tolkien meant. I think she has the easier job. :-) Just kidding.
Okay I'm off. Nicu and Silvana are going to Cluj to celebrate their anniversary, and Naomi and Leo and I are looking forward to having the house to ourselves. We are planning on making Chocolate Chip Cookies!!!
Please pray for Leo, because he is sick with Pnemonia, and he is on antibiotics. He doesn't feel sick, and apparently they caught it the day after he came down with it. But pray that it doesn't spread because we don't know how contagious he is/was, and the rest of us obviously don't want to get sick.
Also Silvana has had some problems with her kidneys and headaches the last few days.
Other than that, we are all doing good. The rain from over the mountains found us and the last few days have been rainy and chilly. *sigh* Mentally I'm used to extreme weather changes (it's jumped 30 degrees back and forth) since I lived on the High Plains, but physically... puh! And some allergy problems.
But I learned some words in Gypsy the other day, and I'm praying I can learn more. Although this whole 'learning two languages at once' thing is challenging. I did it before when I studied Hungarian and Romanian symultaniously, but my brain is beginning to feel like a blister. :-)
Pace Domnului cu voi. Peace of God with you!