Tuesday, March 8, 2011

My first sermon

so... TECHNICALLY its a sermon I delivered for Speech class. Before anyone wigs out, there were only two guys there and one was my professor. The other 20 people were my classmates and they were all girls. Anyway here are my notes. Hope you enjoy. ;-)


I'm going to read the text from the Light side of the force and the Dark side of the Force. THe dark side, the KJV, and then the light side, the ESV. The two translations use different words that capture the meaning really beautifully.

Count it all joy when ye fall into diverse temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.(KJV James 1:2-4)

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (ESV James 1:2-4)

Introduction: this is a difficult passage; telling others to rejoice in suffering. How could we be so heartless to tell some one to 'suck it up, be happy and rejoice' when they are going through a painful time?

However, James uses very familiar terminology in this passage and is exhorting fellow believers as family. That is our duty as well, to exhort one another and offer encouragement freely to those undergoing trials. One of the most important, beautiful characteristics of Christianity is to lift one another up and encourage each other. We are all going to go through trials and temptations, and we must be ready when those times come in our own lives and in the lives of our Christian family. In order to do this, we must understand a few things about trials and temptations. So today I’d like to talk with you about four aspects of the Christian undergoing this type of fire.

1. The essential point of temptation is your faith. – how is faith tried.

ThThere is invaluable blessing gained by the proving of your faith.

3. Priceless virtue which is produced by testing

1 ) You can’t have faith unless you are believer. And you can’t be a believer without faith. This is what is peculiarly obnoxious to Satan and the world of which he is prince. If you didn’t have faith they wouldn’t care, they wouldn’t be enemies of yours because you would be invisible to them. However, God is glorified by the visibility of your faith, and when God is glorified, Satan is annoyed. Satan sees his defeat in the faith of Christ’s believers.

Faith isn’t visible unless it is tried, and God is glorified when faith is visible. Therefore God will surely try your faith.

1b) How is your faith tried? Through Temptation to sin, or through persecution. Scripture is full of the testimonies of the persecutions of believers. We have all experienced persecution.

God doesn’t tempt us, but He may put us in way of/allow us to be tempted.

Trials have in them a measure of temptation, (i.e. if we are hurt we are tempted to react in a way that might hurt those around us) which is why we are instructed to say, ‘lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one.”

Trials and temptations are distinct to each individual. For some they are physical, like being beaten. For others they are emotional. When my mom first became a Christian, her parents were really upset because they felt like she was insulting them by saying they weren’t important to her. When she broke up with her boyfriend – who was wealthy and dishonest – and started dating my dad – who was poor and outspoken and a Christian – they started going out of their way to make her life miserable. They cleaned out her room and threw all the stuff onto the front porch, kicking her out. My grandpa told her he hated my dad. There wasn’t any reason, he clarified. He just hated him. My mom could have responded in turn by finding ways to make their lives more difficult. But instead she prayed for them until they died and encouraged us to pray for them as well.

Temptations/trials come upon us when we least expect them; when things are peaceful and quiet. Things were fine for Job then suddenly one day he was struck to the core in every area of his life. He didn’t have breathing room between the blows of destructive news. Even the strongest are tempted and hurt, but when we remain faithful despite the trials, even heathen cry “there must be something in the religion of God or else how can these people gladly give up their lives and happily bear these troubles?”

Happy is the man whose shield can catch and quench all the fiery darts of the enemy.

2 ) The blessing gained is this, that our faith is tried and proved.

We try self examination often but it doesn’t help much; actual trial is much more effective for revealing ugliness inside. The way you find out if you are a good soldier is to go out to the battle, testing the ship is by putting it on the water and see if she weathers the storm.

Trial proves our sincerity.

Proves the truthfulness of the doctrine itself.

Your own faith in God is proved when you cling to Him in temptation/trial.

It is a beautiful thing to learn the great strength of our Lord. One feels great internal victory when it is proved to Satan the purity of motives.

Trials are like fire, they burn up nothing but the dross, and they make the gold all the more purer. To be refined, metals must be heated up to extreme temperatures and then beaten. It’s the same with our faith.

Trials teach us patience and how to take abuse without retaliation; wisdom teaches us to act without undue haste. Suffering teaches us patience, patience without unbelief, and belief without wavering.

The last year and a half I and both my parents have suffered extreme illness and injury, have lost close family members to death, been rejected by those most dear to us, and betrayed by those we trusted. In one week I recovered from swine flu, my parents’ house burned down, my aunt died, and I had to go to the emergency room. And that was just the beginning. My nick name was Job. But I learned through all of that that God is sovereign, He is faithful, He provides, and He never leads us to what He won’t bring us out of if we trust Him. Since then, when hard times come I am less quick to panic and far more ready to fall on my knees in prayer. I am learning to pray three times more than I talk about a thing.

The Christian learns to say, “I believe my God, and therefore if the vision tarry I will wait for it. My time is not yet come. I am to have my worst things first and my best things afterwards, and so I sit me down at Jesus’ feet and tarry his leisure.”

We learn endurance. We learn to be grateful. Little things. It seems like every time I go overseas, there is some traumatic experience with getting clean. The first time the power went out right after I had so many soap suds in my hair it looked like I had a white afro. For some reason this effected the plumbing, and the water died as well. It was interesting trying to get to a place appearance wise where I felt confident showing myself in public. Another time our indoor plumbing died altogether and the well was about three blocks away uphill through cow paths and washed out gullies. I couldn’t bathe for a week, but I was going in and out of Gypsy villages and the little girls all loved playing with my hair. But to them, lack of bathing is normal, so when they played with my hair, all the dirt and grease from their hands was transferred on to me. When our water was fixed and I finally washed my hair the water was black. I think it’s almost every time I get into the shower here in the states that I thank God for dependable, hot running water!

And the cool thing is that people watch what is happening to us and see that we will endure. Then when trials come into their lives and we encourage them, they see the depth of our words because we know what we are talking about. My host grandma died last year and I was able to call my host mom. Usually when Americans try to comfort internationals they aren’t too sure about taking their comfort because it seems flippant but because she knew what my family had been through she listened and it meant a lot to hear once she heard what I had to say.

Conclusion: We are all preparing for ministry, and many of us are preparing for leadership in ministry. While leadership initially looks glamorous and like it ought to be a fun experience, the fact of the matter is that there is a lot of dirt and pain in that role. The same is true of ministry of any kind, or even just Christian living.

Instead of being shocked when hard times come, let’s begin now at learning how to handle these situations; by studying passages like James 1:2-4. Let’s learn how to encourage one another now and begin asking God to put a guard over our mouth so that we bless one another and give glory to God through all our hardships.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Old pictures, thoughts and memories



Found some 'old' picture CD's while going through some old boxes and found these. While it doesn't look like I'll be taking any trips in the near future, my traveling foot is itching. So I thought I would post some of them, and also give you an update as to what God has been doing recently.

I think its been partially due to the fact that there's been some helpful attempts to cure me and a good friend of mine of that horrid condition, sans husband. And my reaction is to either take them to school as to why that is not helpful, or to simply run away. I know, neither of which are helpful or functional... but its still my immediate reaction.

While she and I both appreciate the good intentions behind the gestures, neither of us see the need for concern from anyone, as the Lord has been doing a huge work in both of us as far as finding our contentment and fulfillment in Christ alone. May sound over spiritual, but that is what it is. And God has blessed us with some great friends.

If we weren't single, I don't think we could enjoy all the platonic friendships God has been showering us with.

Or be available for all the different ministry opportunities that keep coming our way. Its been weird having to turn down stuff the last few weeks. Saturdays are crazy, and there's always opportunities to fill them with more stuff.

While I'm thankful that there is too much instead of not enough, its been a new challenge trying to discern what to keep and what to cut out, how to manage time... balancing relationships of all kinds with what needs to get done.

And learning the difference between what I NEED and what I WANT. And how to clearly represent the difference both to myself and others when talking about it. Or learning how to just not talk about it at all, except in prayer.

And seeing the Lord provide tiny gestures of compassion and grace in small things, and thanking Him for them.
And trying to be still and at peace so that I can overflow with blessings upon others. I've really been convicted recently of trying to discern if what I'm saying is edifying or just jabbering. I don't have it down to a fine art by any means. Its funny how when I have the best of intentions, things are still so poorly communicated. I'm not sure if thats a lack on my part or others' issues, and I've been praying about it.
(And I'm feeling rather melodramatic right now because I've got these cool pictures that I took a couple years ago that I really feel should be on some halmark card somewhere, and I'm listening to the 'Blood Diamond' soundtrack ;-) And its late and I've had a crazy busy fun day with waaaay too much sugar in it and a ton of different accents. :-D)

There's something really nice about typing with the lights off with it raining gently outside in the dark with good instrumental music with a minor key's lilt to it. :-)

We read through the book of Romans this evening, and then shared some interesting stories. A Pastor was beaten up in Rajasthan, India a few days ago, and his church is really scared right now. A Christian girl was kidnapped in a Muslim country... a thousand Pakistani's came to Christ last week... a church leader or two was assassinated in Pakistan. So we prayed for them, we prayed for us...
We prayed for where God is going to take us in the future and that no matter what we would be faithful and a light for Christ. On the one hand it was rather intimidating, asking for these things, knowing that when one submits to the Lord, anything will happen. But at the same time it was exhilarating, knowing that when one is submitted to the Lord, anything will happen! And it will be His will!!
And I wondered once again, thinking about where my family has been and is and where I have been and am... why does God give an extra measure of Grace and provision and comfort to some, despite being in the midst of the Fire... while others feel left alone by Him? And one of my dear friends said to me, "you cannot ask God 'why this and not that,' you can only thank Him for what is and seek to be faithful to those who don't have."
I was talking with another friend last night and we were talking about church leadership and dysfunction amongst laity and how to be a Christian serving in a secular workplace without being obnoxious for the Faith and at the same time not being invisible for the Gospel. Its a fine line and we didn't figure it out, although I did determine by the end of it that people are gonna be mad either way, so mights as well have them mad at you for holding onto the Truth rather than compromising, feeling guilty and STILL having people mad at you.

And I have concluded I have no idea what God is going to do with my future. My friend laughed and said in mock exasperation as I talked animatedly about yet ANOTHER mission field in ANOTHER country, 'I hear a different country from you every time we speak! You just can't make up your mind, can you?' Well.. they all need the Gospel and sound COOL as far as culture and language and clothing go, so...

All that to say I don't know exactly what God is doing or where He is taking me or what is going to happen in the future. But I do know that He is giving me opportunities for Sanctification. And I also know I miss Magda's coffee. And I miss Geza and I arguing about beverage health benefits or lack thereof. And I miss wandering the village, meeting familiar faces and being greeted by a handshake. But I know I'm where God wants me, and I know that He has a purpose and is blessing me on a daily basis with new friends and old friendships deepening and new opportunities opening up. And I'm excited to see what God has.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Worship song

We sang this in Chapel today. I've heard it before and the lyrics always are a convicting reminder and profound encouragement. I hope it blesses you today.

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

Verse 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

Chorus:
I will bring Praise
I will bring Praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
This is my prayer in the Battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror an co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

(Chorus)

Bridge:
All of my life
In every Season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow.

(Chorus)

~Artist Hillsong United Album Across the Earth Song Desert Song~